My intention was never to create a blog and make out my life was “blooming with daisies” and all that shit. I want this little space of mine on the internet to be real. I created a blog to talk more in depth about how I’m feeling and how life isn’t always as great as we make it seem. Over these past few months I’ve found myself feeling the loneliest I’ve ever felt in a world that is so connected.
Nowadays as a society, our lives revolve around social media. I’d say a good 95% of us try to make our lives more picture perfect for the sake of worrying how people may perceive us, let’s be honest. It’s very easy to get sucked into that and I’m completely guilty of it too. But I don’t want to be like that anymore, it’s so damn draining.
It’s so easy to fall into the habit of comparison. We compare ourselves to someone else all the time.
Our follower count.
Our Instagram feeds.
Even our personal appearance.
In fact, two days ago I posted a picture of my cat on Instagram and I felt like it wasn’t even good enough so I took it down. How messed up is that? He’s one of my greatest joys in life but the image I wanted to post just seemed pale in comparison. Pathetic, right?
I’ve decided to strip back the image I exhibit online from this point onward. I’m calling this part of my life “The Messy Chapters”. There’s days when I don’t want to get out of bed and face the world because I’m feeling mentally exhausted. There’s times when I don’t want to do my makeup and make my hair look great just to go to the supermarket or post a picture. I don’t want to fear what others think of me and lose sight on how I view myself.
Yes, life is amazing at times but not always. It can be dark and lonely and as a society we need to stop plastering the image of perfection everywhere because it doesn’t exist. After all we are only human and we are filled to the brim with flaws.
“You need to ignore what everyone else is doing and achieving. Your life is about breaking your own limits and outgrowing yourself to live YOUR best life. You are not in competition with anyone else; plan to outdo your past, not other people.”